Those Summer Nights

The sky was pitch black and so dark you could hardly see, but it was clear. There was no moon, no light, only the dim illumination of street lights. The air was cool, crisp, and fallesque on this dark summer day. Wind was typical on days such as this, but today it was nowhere to be found. No sounds could be heard except O'Hare roaring planes in and out and the distant sound of the L tracks. It was a cool night in Chicago the perfect night to take in the city and enjoy a nice run. Okay, so I admit that perhaps it was not the most ingenious idea to run around my apartment complex for a little over an hour, seeing as the news reports 54 shoots occurring just a couple weeks ago. However, I thought "if I'm going to go down this is a beautiful night to do so, but I know I'm being looked after and this is not my time." Indeed, I was correct on my assumption it was not my time and my five mile run was spectacular. When I don't run for a while I always come back a little out of shape. I ran at a steady pace for about three miles before I did not slow down to a run/walk/jog type prance, but instead full out walked. I rarely walk during my workout sessions, but this time I was so out of shape that I required some nice steady walking. Sure it was slightly disappointing, but it only makes me want to work harder!

After enjoying a nice evening run I came back inside and attempted to wake myself with a shower, which in turn only caused me to have the adverse effect and get sleepy. This could potentially be my fault since I chose to lather up with lavender ingredients tonight feeling as though I need a "cool down" session from life. I had never really actualized the effects of lavender products until now. I do feel quite relaxed and extremely tired. I am running on approximately three hours of sleep though, so it could be a combination of the two. I had to wake up at six and prep myself for an interview which took near two hours. Not that I'm complaining I need a job, but I keep thinking about how happy and relaxed I was in Arizona! It was so nice to have no responsibilities for two whole weeks! I don't think I've had two weeks to myself to do nothing but relax in years honestly. Albuquerque was the closest time to having "time away" and I still had to worry the entire time about my presentation. I also immensely miss having the time to shower in the daytime/morning. Don't get me wrong, I love my nightly showers here in Chi. However, I do find that I become so tired after them I just want to conk out perfect if I have nothing to do, but most nights I am swamped with work and am typically up waiting for my boyfriend to call anyways.

 

I really think I need another vacation already, which is ironic because I'm applying to about 10 jobs a day attempting to get something, anything! I'm sure I'll get the position I interviewed for today and I'm okay with that. Money is money and if you need it you make it any way you need to. Except prostitution and drug sales of course! Or any other type of illegal activity that you know you should not be doing. I prefer to work for my money anyways, because it's so much more rewarding when it drains out of your bank account. Speaking of which my bank account is pretty drained after buying accessories for the Iphone! But it looks super cute so I'm totally fine with that. Though I'm not sure how my dad and I are going to come up with enough funds for our little fishing excursion this weekend. Yes, I am fishing the second weekend in a row. We've decided to go cheap, get worms instead of crayfish, and go to Schaumburg. We'll be fishing for stripper bass and perhaps even a catfish! I know it is such a strange desire, but I've been aching to catch a catfish despite how sharp their fins are, their grotesque appearance and how terrified I am of impending doom on my fingers. I'm clumsy enough where it is inevitable I will be in the ER needed stitches from a catfish. You will all most likely hear my July 4th preaching this weekend sometime. I always have this angsty debate about how the fourth of July just represents the slaughtering of Indians. I'll go into that later, but don't get me wrong I'm proud of the country I live in!

So as I've previously mentioned in this post I'm in desperate need of another vacation. A week to myself to do nothing. Seriously, I'm feeling super drained and though I love work I like to get away! I do love my job though my boss was kind enough to make me cupcakes and have a birthday card signed by all my co-workers. It was the sweetest gesture I've ever gotten from any place of employment! They are pictured by my desk, which I've also updated at work! I enjoy decorating my desk, I'm such a fashionista! (Sort of). Work is actually a place to get away from the chores at home and when I'm not working I'm attempting to get my thesis and applications completed. It's must more difficult then it all sounds I swear! When I'm not working at home or work I'm working in Starbucks sipping on some herbal tea. Which made me realize I really don't need coffee, because the caffeine does nothing to me! I'm so accustomed to drinking it that it actually only gives me acidic heartburn later on in the day. I've been sticking to herbal tea in every regard. I've attempted to stay away from the devil reincarnated in a sugary can. What's this can? Pop. Or as others may call it soda or soda pop. Yes, I will admit I had a half a can of coke today, but this coke was flat, hot, and from the night before. My last memory of pop is that and I want that image to stick in my head to avoid further consumption. It's delicious, but so unhealthy for you and I'm attempt to get rid of some of these unhealthy habits I have!

Anyways, I'm super duper tired and my room is a super duper tornado train wreck. Yes it actually looks like someone took their train and drove right through it throwing their random clothing articles and papers all over the place. I am going to attempt to pick up some things so that tomorrow I can go to work and not look at my room and be gloomy from it's depressing state. Hope you all have a wonderful fourth of July weekened. Night world :]

Sincerely,
Alexis Zoe