The Box

As many of you know I am an addict of anything that is remotely in the genre of horror. I am not sure if it is that human curiosity of the unknown that intrigues me to horror so much, but I am completely addicted. I have been aching to see the new Nightmare On Elm street film (seeing as Freddy Kruger is my favorite horror killer), but alas I have not yet seen it. Since I was unable to go yet again tonight, I decided to watch a new horror film my dad picked up for me. It was entitled The Box. I had wanted to see it while it was in theaters, but did not have anyone remotely interested in seeing it. These horror movies seem to be moving towards a new direction. Instead of a bunch of young teens getting slaughtered after sexing and doing drugs there are emotional love stories behind them. This story not only had a touching romantic side to it, but exposed how valuable having people in your life is over material positions.

I don't want to be perceived as a cry baby, but the end of this film actually made me cry because of the beautiful message it sent out. I don't want to spoil the movie for anyone so I will just say that the ending really put in perceptive how important the people in my life are and how you should never take those in your life for granted. No sum of money could ever be placed on having your family well and healthy. Happiness can not be bought. I have never been so happy in my entire life and I can honestly make this statement without a single question in my mind. Though I fear the worst at times and attempt to make sense of why people actually do care I appreciate each person in my life.

There has never been a period or time in my life that I have resented being with my parents. The company of my parents is indescribable. I don't think I have ever had such a deep connection with anyone or shared so many inside jokes. They make me happy and never leave my side. The love of a parent is something that can never be replaced or be compared to. I was lucky enough to be blessed with two wonderful parents and I know I seem to be redundant when stating this, but I know there are people who are not as lucky as I am out there. I feel for them and wish that everybody could have parents who care so deeply about them as mine do. My mother was absolutely adorable in Target today. She rarely gets out because of her illness and I often have to force her out into the world. My father, mother, and I went out for some good ol' Chipotle (which I found quite challenging to finish in one city! Oh joy for small appetites.) My daddy wasn't so happy about eating Chipotle, but it made my mom delighted so he took one for the team. My mother and I got so excited shopping together that we spent way too much money. I'm pretty sure we bought out Target. She was so excited to be out and thanked me and she has no idea that it was in fact my pleasure to be out with her. I would probably be dead if it weren't for her. While I was in the hospital I had an allergic reaction to a drug they were giving me that almost killed me. Had she not been there every waking moment I would not have been able to call for the nurse and would have died. She is truly my bff and I can honestly say she is the most fun and amazing bff ever!

When we went back to the car my dad was sitting sleeping and he looked adorable as well! I love my dad and I can't believe what a wonderful guy he is. He enjoys to tease me and test me, which isn't always fun, but he is always there for me to rant. He puts up with my complaining and yelling when I am stressed or frustrated. He lets me cry on him when I feel helpless and alone. He and I enjoy the simple things in life like fishing, taking long car drives, talking about life, and having our weekly coffee dates. I believe that I have a man who is as good as him if not better. I really love my boyfriend now and I rarely enjoy disclosing that emotion on a blog. Once a blog is written it is permanent. Yes, I could delete the entry, but I don't believe in deleting parts of my life. Experiences are what create the individual you become and though some may be bad they have to be went through.

If I had not went through them I would not be the same and I feel as though I may not appreciate things to the degree that I did. This movie reminded me of who I am inside and how money gets in the way of humanity. They forget the basic, simple, beautiful things in life such as spending time with those that you love. I could never put a price on my parents or brother. Johnny is priceless and every moment I have with him I cherish. Yes he is 1,733 miles away and it is difficult to be away from someone you love so much, but anything worth something is worth fighting for. Anything in life that is beautiful is a struggle. If it were not a struggle it would lose some of it's beauty for a struggle brings a heightened appreciation for something. I struggled my entire life and will continue to struggle, but any sort of pain or struggle I go through enables me to help people in those very same situations. Nobody should ever have to deal with anything in life alone. Being alone is perhaps the worst position to be in when faced with something tragic and I am determined to help as many people as I can.

I guess I have a highly sensitive persona that causes me to want to help even if I am fighting battles within myself. I just believe that you can learn so much from others and that they have the capacity to learn from you. The lesson I want to teach tonight is to never put a price on the people you love. You may encounter a moment that presents itself for high volumes of money at the expense of someone you love. Money can never buy back that love or make things better. It has the capability to destroy, but never let it control or destroy you. Work hard for what you want in life and always put family and those you love first. You never know when they will be gone.

I love you Mommy, Daddy, Nicky, and Johnny. I love all of my friends for every little thing you have done for me through all of these years. I am blessed and no matter how difficult life gets or how many fast balls it throws at me I know that I will always have these people even if they aren't always here physically. They are forever embedded in my heart and no one can ever take them from me. <3 Oy so emotional. I think three AM is trying to tell me something. Tomorrow I will write my heart out, get applications out there, workout, get a coffee with my daddy, spend some time with my momma, possibly see Nightmare with my brother, talk to the love of my life (Johnny), and be grateful for every second I am alive and spending time with people I cherish the most. Goodnight lovely world.

<3 Always and Forever,
Alexis Zoe The girl who's heart is filled with too much love.