If Bloody Mary were to approach me and claim to be more bloody than I, I'm afraid I'd have to argue with her. For currently I am the bloodiest in all the land. Seriously, though I have had a bloody nose for nearly two days now and it seems to be an endless slew of red that just won't fade away. It actually isn't so bad and the only reason I'm saying this is because I don't have that copper-blood like taste lingering on my taste buds. However, it is quite embarrassing to be bleeding all over the place in virtually every single one of your classes. Then everyone always is uncomfortable, and acts as though they are concerned. Speaking of class my courses tonight were so compelling and enlightening! I do need to begin my research though, and I find that people want to see me far too much! I don't have time to see everyone, but one thing is for sure I won't be getting half as much work done for my classes as I had initially anticipated. I suppose that is what tomorrow is for. Catching up and learning more about this process of research. I seem to be having trouble finding exactly what I desire. I have so much I long to write about, but I need to start taking "responsibility" for what I want to accomplish and buckle down. So tomorrow I shall sit in the library and educate and get things done! Until the night time, when I will be going out with my very good friend Ruby. =]
As many of you know I relate music to how I'm feeling. I feel as though lyrics can actually be in tune with what you are feeling within. The new song that I feel relates to my life in general and what I've experienced in life is Snuff by Slipknot. A preview of the lyrics that I am so in tune with.... "So if you love me let me go. Run away before I know. My heart is just too dark to care, I can't destroy what isn't there. Deliver me into my fate, if I'm not alone I can not ache. I don't deserve to have you, oh my smile was taken long ago if I could change I hope I never know." I suppose that reminds me a lot of an ex boyfriend that I have always and will always have feelings for. A part of me would like him to let me go if he truly loves me, but in the same sense I don't want him to let ago. I've become so accustomed to being hurt in relationships, that I don't care anymore. I have become bitter towards love and I feel that this actually cripples me when it comes to developing new ones. "I never claimed to be a saint," as the song states. I am no saint, but I do have desires. I just don't have expectations for those desires to be achieved at least in a relational sense.
The rest of the night I will enjoy cozy in my bed, as I drift to sleep. I came home and made myself a wonderful dinner! I haven't really eaten all day. The last meal I had was at 12pm! Since then it's just been coffee, and coffee isn't much of a dinner. Doesn't my dinner look yummy?!? I'm having some noodles, tomatoes with ranch, spinach/broccoli mix, watermelon, strawberries, and a tiny bit of granola. I find that I have been eating so healthy lately, and can't get off this "health" kick. I always kind of watch what I eat, but lately I have been obsessed with eating all good things. I really try to avoid processed foods. Oh and that bottle is my nifty water bottle. Water is so refreshing I can't quite comprehend why people don't enjoy it. On another note, I intend on seeing Where the Wild Things are at some point this weekend and I don't care if I have to go by myself!
This photo is goofy I know, but is anyone else as excited for Halloween as I am? Tell me all about your fun plans! Anyways, I'm off to enjoy this meal and sleep! Hope you all have a terrific Thursday.
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