So the headline is kind of sort of cheesy and do accept my apology in advance for that! Today was one of the best days of my entire life. My last blog exposed my fears for my mother and my family, but now I have hope. My mother was informed today that her tumors in her liver are shrinking. What exactly does this mean? My mothers chemotherapy treatments are working! This does not mean that she is cured from this dreadful disease, but it has given my family a glimmer of hope. I could not ask for anything more and perhaps the storm is finally beginning to clear up.
What is not clearing up are these darn Spring allergies! I had never had an issue with sneezing and wheezing around this time of year, but enjoyed the glimpse of the warmth that is getting ready to fall upon us. This year I find myself sneezing constantly and getting the wonderful symptoms of allergies! I now can sympathize and understand why those who possess these allergies complain about how horrific they are. Though allergies are not terribly miserable, they do have some degree of miserableness. That being said despite my sneezing and wheezing I am feeling inspired and excited for the future to come. It is so strange and wonderful how a tiny bit of good news can alter a persons perspective in an instant.
It is Earth Day today and every year I get super excited to promote keeping mother nature well. Some may argue that she is quite destructive (such as the recent volcano overseas), but people can not disregard how beautiful Earth truly is. This is one of the many times of year that I enjoy sitting outside and being inspired despite how polluted Chicago is. I suppose this is part of the reason I am so inspired. I am determined to make everything work in my life and work to my full potential and this is why I have created an Earth Day resolution for myself this year. I intend to spend as much time humanly possible outside of work and school away from my computer. I feel that this will only encourage me to be the most productive that I can be and accomplish all the intense and insane feats I hope to hurdle over!
I am fascinated by medicine and always have been and I have recently realized this while working on what my thesis project will be. I am also interested in gender and media, but I know that I can incorporate these in relation to the health industry. I have decided that I am going to attempt a PhD and perhaps an ultrasound technician simultaneously. Obviously both will have to be part time, but I am determined to do this not only to make those I love proud of me, but to create a better future for my future family.
Putting myself through college, attempting to get by, watching my parents struggle with finances made me determined to have my children never experience such experiences. I want more than anything to provide for my family just as much as my future husband will so that we can enjoy our lives and provide our children with the best educations so that they may have a prosperous life. I do not intend to raise spoiled brats and will no doubt make sure they understand the value of education (as I do!), but I want them to be able to focus solely on that and not have to constantly worry and stress.
My life is full of hard work and I wouldn't have it any other way. Sure I break down sometimes and don't know how I will continue on, but I always do and I always surprise myself. When I think it's not possible I convince myself that it is possible and I push through. The reason that I love Johnny (for those of you who know anything about my life that is my loving boyfriend!) is because I feel as though he is just as determined and passionate as I am and that I feel is the most important quality within a person. Not only are my parents doing better and I'm accomplishing my dreams, but I also have him. One of my favorite films entitled Big Fish states that when you meet your true love time stops. I felt that with him and continue to feel it. I know we're not officially forever, but I feel like we are forever and will do whatever it takes to make our relationship work and fight through the struggles that we may encounter. His happiness means more to me than my own and my goal in life is to make him happy and watch him achieve all that he wants to because I know that he will. He gives me strength when I don't think I have any left and inspires me every single day. Moments with him are the type that I will cherish forever and hope to build more memories with him. June could not come soon enough.
Happy Earth Day all. I know this post did not have any structure or flow to its content, but as I have mentioned below sometimes chaos can be a positive thing and in this instance it is just that! Hope you all do something small to help save our planet today, but if you can't try another day. If we all did something small we could change the world. You may feel your efforts are futile, but they are not if you are not alone and have an army behind it. Follow your dreams and always live to be the best individual you can be. We can't explain what life is like after this so we must live as we want to be remembered.
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Alexis Zoe
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